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Friday, April 18, 2008

Alone with my thoughts

I walked to work today for the first time. My apartment is only about a mile or a mile and a half from my office, which is very convenient, because I hate commutes like I hate hobos. But I have never walked to work before, mostly because I'm not a morning person, so getting up early enough to walk is a bit of a stretch. Hell, I've just accepted the fact that I'm going to always be about a half hour or so "late" to work. It doesn't really matter, though, because I work in a very laid back office in which people seem to just arrive whenever they want. Except the other secretary. She is always there long before anyone else. What does she do during that time, I wonder? I'd be bored out of my mind, and a little afraid of being alone in a big Victorian house that is purportedly haunted and that has a bus stop right out front that gets a lot of hobo business. Did I mention that I hate hobos? I know, I'm a bad person. But an honest bad person, so that must count for something.

So anyway, I had to walk because I blew out a tire on my car yesterday on the way to work. The damn thing had practically no sidewalls left! I'm impressed it didn't blow out much sooner. And I blame it all on Jiffy Lube, who didn't rotate my tires last July when they changed my oil, even though I had paid for them to do so. I knew they didn't rotate them because at the time my front brake pad had almost worn entirely away on one side, and the residual dust from the pad had been collecting on the front tire, which was still in the same place after they were supposed to have rotated them. Jiffy Lube totally owes me a free rotation. Ok, so I should have returned to Jiffy Lube and told them they forgot to rotate them, but I was already upset because Ian had yelled at me for paying for a rotation at all, because I'm not supposed to pay for any extras, just oil changes, even though it's my car and my money and none of his business. (Yes, dear, I still feel that way.) But, really, Jiffy Lube just should have done what they were paid to do without my having to ask them. I know, I know, the world is never going to work the way I want it to. But I'm so stubborn about what is right that I keep holding out hope.

So I'm finally getting to the point of this post: I opted not to use my ipod during my walk to work, but just to allow my thoughts a little time to themselves. We are in such a hurry all the time and rarely give our minds a chance to relax. When I was in college, I walked almost everywhere, most of the time without headphones, and I did some of my best thinking that way. When I had to write a paper, I'd often walk down to the coffee shop to write it, and I'd organize my outline in my head on the way. It's a great way to get some serious thinking done.

I can't do that thinking while biking. For one thing, it's best to keep your attention on the road and not let your mind wander, and for another thing, I'm accustomed to having a soundtrack in my head whilst I ride. When I was a kid it was the Neverending Story theme. (Dooo, do do do do do dooo dooo dooooooo! Falcor, it's like The Nothing never was!) I think that's a perfect theme for any circumstance in which the wind rushes by your face as if you were flying on a Luck Dragon. Today I use my ipod.

I think it's rather tragic that people don't seem to want to be alone with their thoughts these days. Even in the car people don't want to be alone with themselves, so they all have their cellphones stuck to their heads. Going somewhere by yourself? Well, then you'll have to fill your alone time by texting all your friends. After all, you don't want to seem like a loser who doesn't have any friends. Why this need to always be connected to someone or something? Why this fear of being alone?

Sometimes you just need to sit, walk, or ride, without being connected to anyone or anything besides your own mind. I'd like to start doing that more often so I can get a break from this crazy hectic world.



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9 comments:

Loralee Choate said...

It's only the last few years that I have begun to crave alone time and I really like it. I'm still someone who recharges around people but I really have noticed that I need solitary down time more than I ever thought I did.

natabird said...

I totally agree. I rarely drive, but every time I do, I do it in silence. It's nice to just be... no distractions, no noise, nobody else.

Melliferous Pants said...

I'm guilty of being attached to media most of the time but every once in a while I really enjoy driving or walking in silence.

Zac said...

I was just thinking of that movie for some reason.

Anyway, alone with your thoughts, that's me, always, with or without a soundtrack, with or without conversation. Perhaps there can be too much of a good thing.

Sra said...

Well, I believe in the whole moderation in all things principle (thank you, Buddha), so, yes, I think there can be too much of being alone with your thoughts. But I think as long as you are letting your thoughts out once in awhile, you'll be ok.

heidikins said...

One of my favorite things is being alone with my thoughts; no TV, no music, no yakking to someone else. I love letting my mind just wander unaided for a while, it's amazing what I can come up with! :o)

xox

heidikins said...

One of my favorite things is being alone with my thoughts; no TV, no music, no yakking to someone else. I love letting my mind just wander unaided for a while, it's amazing what I can come up with! :o)

xox

natabird said...

I totally agree. I rarely drive, but every time I do, I do it in silence. It's nice to just be... no distractions, no noise, nobody else.

Zac said...

I was just thinking of that movie for some reason.

Anyway, alone with your thoughts, that's me, always, with or without a soundtrack, with or without conversation. Perhaps there can be too much of a good thing.

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